The Half Truth Trap

I used to play "two truths and a lie" a lot. It was one of the most popular youth group icebreakers when I was a teenager. The goal was to tell the group two truths and one lie, but in such a way others couldn't guess which was the truth and which was the lie. It didn't take long to discover the fastest way to trick others was to slip a hint of truth into the lie (I know, this church youth group game taught me how to deceive people more effectively. Ironic.). Yet I think most of us know this principle about deception from other realms aside from the game: the most believable lies have a thread of truth in them. That's what makes them so believable. We learn this from experience, from weaving lies or from falling prey to them a few too many times. Slide some truth in with deception, and the lie just became much more convincing. And another game of "two truths" is won.

However, there's a much weightier issue with half truths than winning an icebreaker game.

A while back I came up against a mental block I just couldn't seem to get past. Logically, I knew this belief I held about myself was false, but for some reason I couldn't move past it. My heart wouldn't accept truth. In moments of quiet, accusations would start piling up in my head about why I wouldn't ever be able to embrace truth and move past this false belief. And unlike other instances where I could easily shoot down lies with logical facts, I had no defenses against these accusations.

When I was a child, I remember going to Target with my family. My mom would point to the big, red concrete balls outside the store and joke with us, "If you can pick up one of those balls, I'll give you $100!" (Or maybe it was $20, which is basically $100 when you're 9.) My siblings and I would always try, straining with every ounce of our tiny bodies to lift that concrete ball. I never could pick it up, no matter how hard I tried. And boy did I try!

That struggle to pick up a concrete ball is exactly what it felt like when I was trying to let go of my false belief and embrace truth. It felt like I was putting everything I had - all my mental energy and strength and effort - into the task, but it just wouldn't budge. No matter how hard I tried, it didn't lift or move or roll or shift. Not even a millimeter.

To get past this false belief - this felt like an impossible task.

I was worn out. Discouraged and frustrated, I alternated between feverishly scheming some new plan to convince my heart to believe the truth and feeling utterly defeated, sitting down with my back against the concrete ball and hanging my head low.

Shout out to my sister Christina & her friend Liz for the picture!

Shout out to my sister Christina & her friend Liz for the picture!

Eventually, someone had to help me break the belief down into two parts. Someone had to help me recognize the thread of truth mixed into the false belief I couldn't seem to let go of. The result was resounding freedom.

The little thread of truth - the half truth in a bag of lies - is the big, red concrete ball we cannot move. It's what makes the accusations in our heads impossible to deny. Yet when we dissect our false beliefs and identify the thread of truth in them, we gain freedom. We are able to treat the thread of truth as truth (as the big concrete sphere we can't possibly move) and the rest of the bag of lies as lies (which are much easier to stop believing when we can separate them from the half truths tripping our brains up). 

Half truths come in many forms, such as:

I am not lovable because I am...

  • imperfect
  • not an outgoing person
  • not a quiet person

Or, I am inadequate because I...

  • am not good at public speaking
  • have to ask for help frequently
  • learn/read/talk/etc at a slower pace than the person next to me

Or, my circumstances are difficult because...

  • everyone in my life hates me
  • I have no natural gifts/talents
  • God doesn't love me

The list goes on and on. But when we can separate truth from deception in these false beliefs, the lies lose their persuasive power. The truth may be that we are not outgoing people or are quiet, and it's certainly true we are imperfect. We may not be good at public speaking, and our circumstances may indeed be overwhelming. We cannot change those things, and that's okay. These truths do not mean the rest of the sentence is true; we are not unlovable or inadequate or defined by our circumstances.

When we recognize the slivers of truth as the big, red concrete balls we cannot move, we are free to stop trying to do the impossible and change the facts. We are free to step around the immovable, keeping the truth and letting go of the lies. We are free to move past the concrete balls of truth into the rest of life which, just like a great big retail store, has so many wonderful things to offer us.

Are there mental blocks you've faced that seemed impossible to move past?
How did you end up moving past them?
Are there half truths are you believing? About yourself, your circumstances?

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But I Am With You

Here in Cambodia, the pace of life is much slower than in the US. I enjoy the free time because it gives me time to research things I saw at the hospital and spend time in the Word. This week I began reading Jeremiah, and though I have only studied the first part of chapter 1 (Jeremiah's call to be a prophet) so far, God is teaching me much through it! Here's a bit of what I'm learning.

First, the passage (Jeremiah 1:4-8): "Now the word of the Lord came to me, saying, 'Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.' Then I said, 'Ah, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, for I am only a youth.' But the Lord said to me, 'Do not say, "I am only a youth"; for to all to whom I send you, you shall go, and whatever I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to deliver you, declares the Lord.'"

Something that was reiterated to me in these verses is that we are all unworthy when God calls us. Like Jeremiah, when God calls me to do something, my first response is sometimes to point out my inabilities and weaknesses. Yet the Lord responds, "Do not be afraid, for I am with you to deliver you" (vs 8). It seems that every time God calls someone who points out his/her inadequacies, God's response is "But I am with you." He said this to Moses, Gideon, Joshua, Paul, and more (Ex 3:12, Judges 6:16, Josh 1:9, Acts 18:10)! Jesus claims this truth, too, before crucifixion. He tells His disciples they will all desert him, but He adds, "Yet I am not alone, for the Father is with me" (John 16:32).

God didn't become angry with those He called for making excuses, and He didn't tell them their claims of being too weak, young, or unable to speak well weren't true. He responded the way He did because He's the One who gives words to say and who delivers and does miracles. God's power is perfected in weakness (2 Cor 12:9-10), but how is it perfected? Through His presence in our lives. He displays His ability in the midst of our inability so that some things can only be explained through His presence.

A friend of mine told me that dying to self is all about stopping saying, "I got this" and saying instead, "God, You got this." I am finding this change in attitude is more than relinquishing control and pride; when I replace the instinctive "I got this" with "God, You got this," I am telling God I trust Him and am willing to walk wherever He leads, even if that path is scary or uncomfortable or undesirable. By saying, "God, you got this," the focus is on Christ - not on myself or on the task He gives. All excuses of why I am unworthy are eliminated, for He is with me. And when my eyes are fixed on Jesus - with the motivation of not just seeing where He leads but of knowing Him - I come to fear Him. The more I know God, the more I fear Him. And the more I fear Him, the less I fear other things. For the fear of the Lord leaves no room for fear of anything else. Inadequacies and unworthiness included.

I am not a nurse yet, or an English teacher, or a Sunday school teacher; I do not speak Khmer and am not familiar with the culture here; I am young and inexperienced. I am not qualified. Yet I will boast in my weaknesses and in Christ's power, confident that He will use me, for He is with me. What sweet comfort and joyous news that is!

But the Lord is with us. I hope this truth speaks to you in some way! May the Lord's presence be evident in your life today.

Love from Cambodia,


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