Code Blue, Code Blue
There’s a code blue
in this house.
The code isn’t for a person.
It’s for a hospital.
A building,
a construct.
The whole system is
flat lining.
Do
something.
Grab the crash cart,
call the nurses,
get the doctor
here, stat.
Draw the labs,
draw the gun,
defend this place,
dammit.
Push epinephrine,
Give vasopressors,
Give bicarb,
Give something!
Start compressions,
intubate.
Put me on life support.
This place is
dying.
It’s crumbling, it’s flatlining.
This place I’ve called home.
The system I operate in is
crashing.
Burning to the ground,
coding,
and there you are, there I am,
doing
nothing?
Where is your compassion?
It is because of compassion
I stand here and
do
nothing.
It is because of
compassion
I let it burn down
flatline
crash
code
crumble
because
life is here,
outside.
Outside the construct,
outside the walls,
outside the system
is
freedom.
is
truth.
Compassion keeps me here
as you watch your system crumble,
and a deeper compassion keeps me
from rescuing this construct.
That framework—
it was a death trap.
I let the house of lies die
so you can see the world of truth.
Reality is,
I couldn’t stop it if I wanted.
Painful thing is,
I wouldn’t want to, anyway.
But I’m here.
With you.
I’ll stand with you
I’ll cry with you
I’ll crawl with you.
I’ll mourn with you.
I’ll walk with you into the ashes,
hold your hand
as it slips away.
The place you lived your life,
where you were birthed,
where you grew up,
where you learned life skills,
where you became who you are.
But the system is not
who
you
are.
Who
you
are
is outside those walls.
It’s here,
in truth, in the world of
love and
grace and
mercy and
Jesus.
The house of lies you lived in so long,
let it burn down. Let it collapse.
It’s burning around you; I know it hurts you.
I know it feels like
the oxygen you need to survive
is being consumed by the fire.
I know it feels like
a loved one is
being ripped from you
too soon.
A framework for life
is dying.
A Code, A Code!
There’s a code here.
Wait, someone made her DNR.
It’s not
in my nature
to let someone die,
to let something die,
to let anything or anyone die.
It’s my nature to
fight for life, to
fight for prolonging
what is and what was.
To make it what will be,
too.
You’re asking me to do something else?
But something better? You say.
To advocate for life
in a way
only death
can bring.
A Code, A Code,
There’s new life here.
What?
